Wednesday, January 26, 2005
||splitting head||
I'm feeling so stressed lately, and there's basically two reasons: the first is the test, which is already over. I wanted to start studying on Fri, but it ends up only on Sun 8PM then start. Luckily the econs test ques is rather straight-forward, so shouldnt be a prob unless i answered wrongly.
The second problem is some BGR problem. I somehow ended up in a fren's BGR prob, and thus have to help him out. The guy need some help, so i sought of help him abit. It's a rather jialat situation, so i hope we can work out some miracle ba. However, this problem makes me feel more useless, if not weak in personality. I remembered the last time i felt so depressed was when I made a blunder in UOB, but the mistake was a thing that almost everyday Li Jun and Raquel will do de. It was the first time i made a mistake since i started work which was like 3 weeks ago. I still remembered vividly that it's because I thought of her on that day. She was feeling down because of something, but i'm not able to make her feel better. Haiz... The thing made me rather depressed for that week only, but now this BGR thingy made me feel so worse for around 2 weeks le. Although when i'm outside i seem very normal, it's just that i hope that i can make myself feel better if i bahave that way, but when i got home and all alone, i will just feel more depressed.
Now i have another pro: my fren's "gal"may not be coming.She may be at the Sentosa's resort this weekend, which is most prob the day for the gathering.
I feel lost. can anyone out there help me.. i'm suffocated!
peNnEd oFf aT 3:53 AM