..tHis iS mY liFe..

Friday, May 13, 2005

||thanks mum and dad!||

this entry is to sarah. that time i said in the reply that i dun celebrate birthday, cuz it's the first time i made my mum suffer becuz of me. u gals should uds.. if not will uds in the future how painful it is in the process of child birth. the period of raising me in her body, and in the hospital when i was due. that's why i dun celebrate birthday, if wan to celebrate also should be celebrating for my mum, and not me.

although my life in this world is not always happy, i will still thank mum for giving me a chance to live in this world. thx mum and dad.. thx for all those u have did for me. although i dun say it out to you all, i hope that my actions from now on will be filled with these feelings.

peNnEd oFf aT 3:45 PM

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

||troublesome||

why on earth do pple wan relationships? they should have known that nothing will be happily ever after, there's no such things at all. i used to choose to believe in that, but now it all seems so out of reach. it didnt happen on me, i only see it in other's eyes. for some, holding on to ur beliefs do work in the end, but how many such cases are there? those who are attached now, hold on to them tightly. dun lose them, and ur happiness. i cant help but to think of all these. pple come and tell me their prob, some whose probs have clinged on to them for yrs. how is this possible.. yrs. cant they jus be like me and be more optimistic? sure i am not very optimistic bout such things, at least i didnt land up in those situations. picture perfect : if u really love the person, it doesnt mean u gotta be with the person, if u really love the person, u'll be happy for the person if he/she is happy even if u all r not together. that is not said to me, but well.. it's kinda true anyway. not everyone can attain that. it takes alot out of them to achieve it. in a broken relationship, one of the party will be hurt. from the start, none of them wants to be hurt and hurt the other. but, nothing is perfect. not that i want to affect those who are reading this, but i just cant stand it sometimes. it's just so ridiculous. a broken relationship is wad we may end up now. wad can u expect, marry the other? seriouly i think we are too young to think of that. to all folks out there : hope this entry didnt affect u guys too much. i jus need to voice out all these somewhere.

peNnEd oFf aT 4:33 PM

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

||house of wax||

taught rong social studies today. actually almost cant catch house of wax today, cuz teaching her and cant make it on time. around four plus yoki called and said they changed the timing to 6 de, so i can go and watch. well.. the show is not really good, not as nice as what the trailer imaged it as. frank also think likewise. just now the show he sit beside me, so sad. i told the rest i dun wan to sit beside him, but that's what i got in the end. i knew he will be up to something, and truely, before the start of the show, got a few movie trailer, then got scary de and he pulled my shirt and hugged onto me. not only once, not twice, but 5 times.. after the show went to cine to have dinner. took a long time cuz jan and yoki went to dunno where get their food. after they came back yuka and her bf also went to get the same food.

it's not that someone told me u changed the address, it's just that i realised even when u changed the address the page will still be there. and i realised that the tag board is gone. conclusion i made is u changed the address and removed the board so that u can use on the new webbie. well, since u dun wan me to know, what can i say? there's no point in me knowing that webbie also since u dun wan me to know.

peNnEd oFf aT 3:29 PM

Monday, May 09, 2005

||HapPiNesS||

I believe that we can live life to the fullest
Although we are just like a tree in a forest;
The surrounding often played with our thoughts,
feelings and dreams are everchanging too.
People are often seen with a happy face,
but not many knows what lies beneath them.
Be a motivator or get motivated by,
important thing is how hard you try.
Think it in a positive way,and it will brighten your day;
think it also in the negative side,and delete those messages from your mind.
Since there are people who says we can choose to be happy,
I will live by this truth and make it happen.
Of course life is full of ups and downs,
it's never easy to stay forever happy at all;
But if you keep those sadness at bay,
happiness is just a tear drop away.
As what the fairy godmother says:

HAPPINESS IS JUST A TEAR DROP AWAY.

peNnEd oFf aT 2:54 PM

Sunday, May 08, 2005

||LasT||

today no need go work, cuz i quitted the job! well.. have been feeling guilty of cheating pple to come down to their office, so i dun intend to do after doing for 2 weeks. this job is fun, although for me i dun earn at all. but it gave me the chance to interact with pple, and through this i got to know more of other pple's personality and job career. most impt of all, KIDS!! yest which is the last day got play with this girl. she was afraid of me; vinc was asking her mum to do the thing, so while her mum was filling in the form i played with her. at first when i talked to her she hide behind her mum, so i tot she was afraid of me. then i ask her are u afraid of me? she jus stare blankly at me. so i stretched out my hand, ask her to give me a ^5, and she gave me! not only once, when i ask for another, she also gave me. in all, she gave me 5.. yest also slack the most, took two breaks in all.. one at 2 plus.. the other at five plus. didnt tell mithun obviously.. then went walk walk somemore.. go to far east.. go to the comics connection and see got new comics anot.. the last day is always the best day. till now this still applies to me, although yest only got vinc, me, yuka and frank came. sindy quitted on wed, jan on thurs, yoki should be this sun. wed got a special guest appearance.. no need me to say things here.. haha.. so everything is finally set? good for her man.. no worries le.. =)

yest really came 7 more new pple, but.. expectedly.. whahaha.. they left soon after.. LoL.. well.. this kinda of job is not for all.. especially if u are an introvert. so one by one all left the job.. and if this still goes on(pple come and go on the same day), mithun will have to scratch his head hard to generate more pple.. after yest only yuka, yoki frank and yee ching left. and they will all be quitting soon except frank who will quit on 29/5. since he said that he got more than a hundred ways to generate manpower, i guess no need to worry too much for him ba.

peNnEd oFf aT 12:20 AM

雨后

站在窗前看着雨点划落，
好想知道你现在在做什么
这一幕的情景再次让我想起了你，
那个单纯无邪在雨里玩耍的你
曾经有过的无数美好的回忆，
这些不知都跑到了多远去
好像也跟着我们淋过的雨点一起被冲走了
这些对我重要的一切，似乎对你没什么特别的意义
你心里以有的另一个他，一个对你最重要的唯一
一直以来我式着为他给你那份爱，
但似乎没起什么作用
一个他给你的微笑才是你所要
我式着把你忘记，渐渐减少所付出的一切
只有在你拥有幸福的一刻我才会离开。
曾经有过的无数美好的回忆，
这些不知都跑到了多远去
好像也跟着我们淋过的雨点一起被冲走了
这些对我重要的一切，似乎对你没什么特别的意义
你心里以有的另一个他，一个对你最重要的唯一
一直以来我式着为他给你那份爱，
但似乎没起什么作用
一个他给你的微笑才是你所要
等了好久之后，雨终于过了，
泪已经干了，痛也就没了。

by xiaoghost