..tHis iS mY liFe..

Thursday, April 07, 2005

||!!strange dream!!||

jus now had a very strange dream. i was working in the police station and doing my usual stuff. then two other policeman came into my office and said that i had violated a law, so had to bring me for interrogation. i knew i was being malign, so i had to make my escape and find out the truth myself. my supervisor came jus in time, and said that she would bring me down to the room instead. as she's one of the highest rank officer, so they had to obey her order and went out of the room. she also knew bout the setup, so she decided to let me go and find more proof. i had to put on the handcuff before the two policeman leave the room, but she managed to trick them by only putting it on oneside, using two handcuff. strange? the two policeman didnt realise there are two handcuff. anyway after they went out of the room my supervisor told me which escape route to use. as i was at the last room before i left the station, i saw my sec sch teacher! he was a policeman before being a teacher, and after he joined teaching he's still working as a policeman, he's the highest rank in area 21(if i'm not wrong my sch is in that area). so i chatted with him for a while, then realised that i'm still on the run, so went off soon. i heard a loud bang and was shocked till i woke up. guess wad.. it was my mum dropping my sis's books on the floor..

peNnEd oFf aT 11:21 PM

||--job--||

today went to vinc house, to slack first. actually wanted to go to ECP le.. but the weather not very good so didnt go. mum once said that during this period(qing min jie dunno what is it called in eng) will rain alot, looks like it's true. for the past few yrs i have been observing it, and will rain during this period de. anyway went to his house, then around one plus left cuz he hungry, so went to eat. during then we decided where to go.. dunno where to go cuz of the weather cant go beach, so called sarah to ask where they are.. went to tampines to meet them, slack there talking for a while then wei yuan(my sec sch fren) msg me whether wanna work anot, so went to raffles place to meet him. lucky didnt go beach, cuz raining when we reach raffles place. had to cross the road to reach the office, and he only brought one umbrella, so he had to shelter me and vinc one by one across the street. made him soaked man.. we also got abit drench, but not as worse as him. slack at lau pat sat for a while, cuz the rain rather heavy and he said the office till late de.. so sat there talking bout the job. eh sarah i dun think u want the job cuz is sales.. is those where u have to wear formal one.. i at first also dun wan work de cuz have to wear formal, but cuz if u wan to quit halfway it's ok de so i took the job. it's own time own target one, as if u are a boss.. not like working for someone de. wanted to tell others about having a job at first, but didnt cuz the job not really suitable for those whom i wanna tell de.. pple like jan haha.. and vinc at first wanted to tell belinda, cuz they said if got job will tell one another, but dun think belinda will. if anyone after reading this is still interested u can contact me and i will try to tell u all more details. tomoro have to go office for briefing, at one. not too bad la cuz the office got two gals not bad.. but is really not bad only.

jus now chatted with sarah they all, then they like dun belief what i told them jus now.. (dun tell anyone what we said!~~) anyway i look at girls really for fun, laughter and joy only, but they doens't seem to belief, so be it.. i know it best myself.

dun wan to "say" anyone here, but i dun think we will ever know how to be contented; when there is jus a small glimpse of hope, we will tend to cling on to that tiny hope, not knowing how to be contented ba.

i choose not to belief in this, although i know it's the truth. being a good guy will not have a easy time, whereas being a bad guy have a easier life. seems like a paradox, but it's true from what i observe. i want to have a good life(who doesn't??), but i dun wan be a bad guy.. is it possible? maybe it's time to be a bad guy..! no one cares anyway..

peNnEd oFf aT 2:37 PM

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

||I WANT THE BEACH~~!!||

today stay at home slack, actually wanted to go out, either go beach alone or cycle. but the weather this few days have been not good so gotta stay at home. now i have to go beach alone liao, cuz nel got sarah and vinc not so free anymore, cant expect to go with jiayi only. he also will not go, knowing him for 9 mths plus liao.. have been sneezing the whole day long, it's either someone has been saying things bout me all day long, or i'm gonna be sick le. wish i can be sick? cuz this way i will jus lie on the bed, and think of nothing else ba. knowing too much is no good, but at least it's better to know more than not to know anything. but.. haiz.. shall not continue.
i see the guy who waited for my sis still hanging on for 3 yrs le, heading no where i guess. sometimes it's better to give up when it's time to do so isnt't it? but jus that maybe when u hear something happen to the one u once cared so much to u will feel something wrong in ur heart again. will miracles really happen? some pple wait liao and really get paid off, so THOSE who are attach now PLS TREASURE WHAT YOU HAVE NOW. dun only regret it when u lose it. we often neglect the things that we should really treasure, cuz we think that those are what we deserve. but the world is everchanging. no one knows what will happen tomoro.

I WANT TO GO TO THE BEACH!!

peNnEd oFf aT 12:37 PM

Monday, April 04, 2005

||think too much||

maybe i'm thinking too much, maybe not. i think that this world is unfair, even when sometimes we have already tried our best, we still cant get what we want. the good dun always end up with a good ending, while the bad most of the time have a good ending. why is this so.. maybe i see too much tv shows, or maybe the tv shows are for real. even if u do something good the ending may not be what u wan, sometimes not even close to what u wan.. haiz.. i'm so bloody irritated by this world, for being so unfair! life is like schooling, with so many tests in a yr, and i m like jus passing each test only. i have already failed twice, which i dun wanna mention which. when will my grad night ever come? afterwhich then i can apply whatever i have learnt in my real life.. life sux!!

peNnEd oFf aT 3:45 PM

雨后

站在窗前看着雨点划落，
好想知道你现在在做什么
这一幕的情景再次让我想起了你，
那个单纯无邪在雨里玩耍的你
曾经有过的无数美好的回忆，
这些不知都跑到了多远去
好像也跟着我们淋过的雨点一起被冲走了
这些对我重要的一切，似乎对你没什么特别的意义
你心里以有的另一个他，一个对你最重要的唯一
一直以来我式着为他给你那份爱，
但似乎没起什么作用
一个他给你的微笑才是你所要
我式着把你忘记，渐渐减少所付出的一切
只有在你拥有幸福的一刻我才会离开。
曾经有过的无数美好的回忆，
这些不知都跑到了多远去
好像也跟着我们淋过的雨点一起被冲走了
这些对我重要的一切，似乎对你没什么特别的意义
你心里以有的另一个他，一个对你最重要的唯一
一直以来我式着为他给你那份爱，
但似乎没起什么作用
一个他给你的微笑才是你所要
等了好久之后，雨终于过了，
泪已经干了，痛也就没了。

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