..tHis iS mY liFe..

Friday, March 04, 2005

||=what is life?=||

Saw jan's blog so wanted to update something.. "realised tt life actually is a big joke .. no matter how much one does or how good tt person is nothing good will ever happen to tt person .. on the other hand those so called 'baddies' would always have good things in return no matter how much bad things they did .. tt's how cruel living on earth can be ba .." the reason is simple for her dilemma.. cuz when bad guys do things u will think that i can nvr be good.. so whatever "normal" treatment that they receive u will think that it's good somehow.. cuz u cannot agree that even if u are bad, pple will still treat u good. however if u are a nice guy.. when pple treat u bad u will feel that's terrible.. cuz logically u should get back the kindness that u gave others and not ill treatments.

However, although i can somehow explain this paradox, i still do not have an ans to "what is life all about". Till now, i only think that life is like studying in a school. U have plenty of endless test to do before u can graduate. however, the scoring system is nvr fair and u jus cant get the best score ever. The logics that u think will help u in life is nvr correct. We often have to do things in the opp way to get to the final destination. The line between correct and wrong is so thin; so thin that u may be in the wrong side in another's eyes. It's like the parallax error but it's true.. to some pple the things that u do are nvr correct, unless u do things the way the see it. Moreover, there isnt only one person that is looking at it: there's plenty of pple looking and u will have to satisfy them all. Due to the pressure of these, often, if u cant stand straight, u might jus fall down and nvr be able to climb up again. So, how can we ever graduate in life with good and respectable results?

peNnEd oFf aT 4:02 PM

雨后

站在窗前看着雨点划落，
好想知道你现在在做什么
这一幕的情景再次让我想起了你，
那个单纯无邪在雨里玩耍的你
曾经有过的无数美好的回忆，
这些不知都跑到了多远去
好像也跟着我们淋过的雨点一起被冲走了
这些对我重要的一切，似乎对你没什么特别的意义
你心里以有的另一个他，一个对你最重要的唯一
一直以来我式着为他给你那份爱，
但似乎没起什么作用
一个他给你的微笑才是你所要
我式着把你忘记，渐渐减少所付出的一切
只有在你拥有幸福的一刻我才会离开。
曾经有过的无数美好的回忆，
这些不知都跑到了多远去
好像也跟着我们淋过的雨点一起被冲走了
这些对我重要的一切，似乎对你没什么特别的意义
你心里以有的另一个他，一个对你最重要的唯一
一直以来我式着为他给你那份爱，
但似乎没起什么作用
一个他给你的微笑才是你所要
等了好久之后，雨终于过了，
泪已经干了，痛也就没了。

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