..tHis iS mY liFe..

Thursday, April 14, 2005

||A positive or negative life?||

today went to office, for the last time i think so. i dun wish to work there in the first place, but i still went there cuz i know that i can learn alot there. it's full of knowledgeable pple, who can guide me. but the job is not my ideal kind, not that it's not suitable for me. when i told wei yuan that i wanna quit, he told me alot, wanting me to stay as predicted. not only he can benefit if i were to stay, but also due to the amount of effort which they put in training me. it's not that i dun wan to work there, but it's really not my ideal job. all i want now is a 9-5 job. well it's holi period.. i dun wish to put in so much committment in a job.

actually wanted to go to town after that, but due to the late timing and the weather abit cloudy, i made my way home after that. luckily i did that cuz when i was on the bus back home near ubi, it started raining. i tot it was only affecting the east area, starting from eunos till ubi area only.. but when i reach hougang it was still raining. so i alighted at tushan's house bus stop, and wanted to walk home from there. i stopped when i was halfway through the overhead bridge, cuz the rain was too heavy. stood there for around 1/2 hour, but it was beneficial cuz i managed to clear alot of my doubts. staring at the rain is good.. so relaxing. walked home from there when the rain became drizzle only.. cuz i wanna soak in the rain abit. it was like since sec sch days when i really did this..

life is all about ourselves isnt it? of cuz when one day we are successful we would like to share this happiness with someone, but eventually pple come and go. some pple describe life is like driving a bus. pple board and alight at diff bus stop, but how many of them stay with u till the end of the journey? not many.. therefore, to me, we should live life to the fullest. i know u may think it's not easy; got one chinese saying "shuo de bi chang de rong yi" meaning saying is more easier than doing it. yeah i agree.. so i have another principle of life.. "it's what u think that matters". well others' action will affect ur live, cuz we are who we mix with. we can affect other pple's life sub-conciously. u may not know it.. only those who are affected knows. for example, sorry sarah i would like to use u as an example.. sometimes u will be pissed off by what nel said rite? but many times u are happy cuz of wad nel did am i rite to say so? remember that u have the power to influence others! hope this example is useful for ur understanding..

it's always possible to let only those positive remarks affect u; dun let those negative remarks affect u. dun try to make trouble for yourself and put any blame on self. somethings things are better than u think it is.. always check to see the truth before concluding. nvr assume as u are only making an "ass out of u and me". however, negative remarks are also good, as with those remarks, u will then know what u are weak at and need improvement. so only allow those negative remarks affect u to improve for the better. always think positively. i can also think negatively! if i were to think negatively, i will say that life is like a rainbow; it seems so beautiful, but it's a mirage afterall, it's not there.. should u think that way?? i dun think we should.. we should however be thinking: live is like a rainbow. it's so beautiful! i agree it's only a mirage, but i will definitely one day make it not only a mirage! pple with positive thinking make things happen. while pple with negative thinking only think they will never happen. so which do u wan? an easy way which is to think that they will never happen? or a more difficult way which is to make things happen? i hope u choose the latter.

well.. all these things came to my mind after standing at the bridge for 1/2 hour, thinking bout these. good things are meant to be shared, so i wan to benefit those reading my blog. hope u all dun think i'm too naggy.. well i'm all the way like this! u all should know it by now. =)

peNnEd oFf aT 1:01 PM

雨后

站在窗前看着雨点划落，
好想知道你现在在做什么
这一幕的情景再次让我想起了你，
那个单纯无邪在雨里玩耍的你
曾经有过的无数美好的回忆，
这些不知都跑到了多远去
好像也跟着我们淋过的雨点一起被冲走了
这些对我重要的一切，似乎对你没什么特别的意义
你心里以有的另一个他，一个对你最重要的唯一
一直以来我式着为他给你那份爱，
但似乎没起什么作用
一个他给你的微笑才是你所要
我式着把你忘记，渐渐减少所付出的一切
只有在你拥有幸福的一刻我才会离开。
曾经有过的无数美好的回忆，
这些不知都跑到了多远去
好像也跟着我们淋过的雨点一起被冲走了
这些对我重要的一切，似乎对你没什么特别的意义
你心里以有的另一个他，一个对你最重要的唯一
一直以来我式着为他给你那份爱，
但似乎没起什么作用
一个他给你的微笑才是你所要
等了好久之后，雨终于过了，
泪已经干了，痛也就没了。

by xiaoghost