Thursday, November 10, 2005
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This entry is posted to you. it's only after seeing you in msn jus now that i wanted to write this. vinc has been telling me somethings lately, if not i would nvr have written this entry. this is how i have been passing my time for the last 1 and a 1/2 years. if the person who's meant to see this didnt see this instead, maybe it's all fated things will end up like this to begin with.
You are the one that has changed my life the most. Every comments that you have given, every words that you have said, has been given more thought than from others. Your words just have more impact on me. Just a msg from friends saying you are not happy and it will affect me for almost the whole day. And seeing your pictures will just remind me of the person whom i cant give real happiness to. However, that was all in the past. Now, you have not affected me that much anymore, at least not as much as in the past. if not, i wouldnt have typed this msg if you can no longer affect me at all. I just don't wish that you will perhaps feel that i'm angry with you as i didn't chat with you in MSN since then. It's just that I have been pondering about us, about why I feel that I can't treat you like any other girls. I have always felt awkward talking to you in MSN, especially when I asked things about your relationship life. That's why i asked your friends instead when i heard things about your life. Not that i like that, I just don't wish to really hear more things about what happened between you and him. I hoped that no unhappiness will ever happen between you and him. When I can finally face you without more biasness, maybe that shall be the time when i can treat you as real friends instead. Till then, I hope that you can give me some more time in sorting out my feelings.
peNnEd oFf aT 1:05 PM