Monday, November 14, 2005
||wake||
have been at my uncle's wake this few night. staying there at night with my cousin, without a good night sleep this few days. had to stay there for two consecutive nights as there are not enough guys on my mum's side who are able to stay over; either too young or married.
in the morning when we arrived at the wake my cousin's hubby helped me to bandage my arm. cuz the skin was finally so seriously injured, it was like dark red last night. she even went home last night to get the cream for me, before going home after that. however, her hubby bandaged my arm so thickly, it looks like dumpling. haha so funny.. everyone laughing there when they saw it..
went to the funeral jus now at bright hill. saw another dad's fren there. turn out to be her mum's 49 day of death. anyway, when we reach there jus now, after everything was settled down, they prayed for a while and before i know it, the coffin was pushed into the "burning place". didnt know that the cremation had taken place if not for the sound of the fire so suddenly. aunt was crying so badly jus now, and my cousins too. even mum cried. while walking on the road jus now for "sending" my uncle off on the last journey, tears almost rolled down my cheeks, but cant let them fall off, jus.. cant. at bright hill was worse off, as there are pple crying there, the tears jus almost drop off. but managed to hold back. haiz.
this few days have not been quite myself. think was affected by the wake, it sought of drew away my energy and made me more sleepy then usual. and also took away my senses sometimes, i will jus be angry over the least impt matters. well.. perhaps there was jus someone who are pissed off by me ba. didnt reply my msg last night too. well.. whatever.
peNnEd oFf aT 1:38 PM